Lol went out. Relaxed. Took NOT one of my 15 scripts today except nausea. And made it from 8 to 10:30!! Yes I had chemo and and other meds via i.v. but they said still ok to take pain meds etc but I chose not too. :) Grandma Rakarich watched Simon and he was a bit unsure and wanted, and begged me with sleep over with grammy and pappy , but he did very well with grandma Rack. Very nice night.
I didn't wear hair. It just feels weird. I am going to order light weigh bright color hair wig that looks fake that I can wear come fall. This "fake long look" doesn't work for me. I am odd. I am what I am. Play wig for fun wig that doesn't look or feel real Im cool, but what I need to look ,like me and isn't real or I I feel odd. :( Sounds odd to me too). lol
Anyhow many are talking of a benefit for me in oct or nov. That feels weird to me. I'm not a sick person!!!! I am a strong tuff, excuse my language, Bitch! I have said NOOOO for last few weeks But I am now considering it. :/ I HATE needing help. But I really could use it. Blah darn it and crap!
Oh well. I will do what they need me to do. It's just oh so hard to admit the reality of it all being a life threatening disease. Blah no way. Im tuff. MAYBE 6 wk chemo!!! In two week we will sono tho! Sucker better be shrinking! If not chemo will go more aggressive and longer,,,,
BUT NOT me!!
Enuf of that !!! I will do this, I will conquer it with god and family and extended family reading this junk!
Keep u posted on sono...2 weeks! Love to all who came out!! <3
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