Week 3 or 4 of Being Diagnosed.

Week 3 or 4 now. I've seen Surgeon, Oncologist and Breast Cancer Specialist, etc.

Here's the plan: We must do aggresive chemo for the HER2 positive first, minimum 6 months, and then surgery afterwards. By doing chemo first they will be able to monitor the size of tumor giving them more info on how the chemo is working.

First day of chemo is June 3rd. But let's put that on the back burner for a minute.

This week, before the chemo, I will have a Muga scan ( checks the heart for the one chemo drug to make sure it can handle it), then a PET scan (checks the enitre body to ensure that there are no other areas of concern) and lastly, an outpatient procedure to install a port in my chest area to be used for treatments that saves on your veins. :)

To back it all up a bit, my choice of surgeon at this point is undetermined because I've decided that I am placing it on the backburner since my concentration right now is to give 100% with the chemo. Will give the surgery and 2 surgeons I've consulted with some more thought closer to that time. No sense in putting my brain in overdrive. This decision can wait awhile!

I think that I've caught everything up to date medically with the posts. So from here on out, maybe I won't have to backtrack! But please feel free to ask away if I left anything out that anyone may want to ask any questions about. :)

I've talked, I've researched. I've tried to share a little emotions with family and some friends too. But I do have a tendency to sugar coat for the ones that I love. I have mostly kept it in the closet, the few times that I've had panic attacks that late at night, take your breath away and the pain and tears of it all that is to come overwhelms me. I've always been a tough cookie, my life has always generally revolved around others' happiness and being there for everyone close to me and even strangers. It is the most DIFFICULT thing for me, to see my family hurting and worrying about me, knowing that I can only do one thing to help them, and that is to fight, and to fight hard! I don't do well on the "other side". lol It's sooo difficult to let others help me. It's so hard not to be able to fix another's pain, that I feel I've created. But, I am trying.

Well, its a long holiday weekend. I plan to try and make the most of it with my family and friends, and especially my children! Hope anyone that reads this will too! God bless!