noon

Baby at swimming. Took a bath, fresh pjs on. Major belly pain. Terrific headache. Body feels like its on fire, although I'm wearing a sweat suit and under blanket still freezing. Couldn't imagine trying to eat something. Can't tell if I'm gonna vomit or just pass out. Body aches in places that you never knew you had. And the total exhaustion where you can't stand that your eyes are open and feel as if it takes all of your will power to stay awake, because you have to.....This is how chemo feels.  Every day. Off and on. Not a good few days, and few bad ones, but hour by hour.  Up and down, each and every day. For at LEAST the next 6 months.  This is the reality of cancer and chemo treatments. But we put on our happy faces and try and convince ourselves and others that everything is going well.  :)